Ten thousand is a big pile of birds, no doubt, but I don't think the mangled ones deserve to be lumped in with the clean cuts like they cancel each other out. Every one of those sloppy early breaks taught your hands where the joint actually sits, so the number is really just the sum of getting better at it. Standing there doing the math is fine, but the birds you wrecked are the ones that got you to ten thousand in the first place.

Tbh the forcing part is what gets you. I tried to make myself love a bread machine for like a year and every loaf felt like homework. The thing that actually worked was picking one recipe I already eat all the time, for me it was taco soup, and only canning that. Didn't touch the rest of the setup for months. Once one jar came out good I did a second batch, then a third. Now I do maybe six batches a year and the canner earns its spot. If you can't get yourself to do even one batch of chili in the next month, that's your answer, sell it and don't feel bad.