Update: I dropped $75 on a 'calming' weighted stuffed animal for my desk at work
I got it because I smile through every meeting even when my brain is screaming, and I thought squeezing something would help. It turned out to be a 5 pound blob that just made people ask if I was having a rough day, which made me smile harder. Now it lives in my bottom drawer and I feel weird every time I open it, so does anyone have a small thing that actually helps when you are faking it?