Yeah totally get that. Tried to sketch my own layout once, lines looked like a seismograph reading. The software fixes my mistakes, but it feels sterile. Something about the smudges and coffee rings on real paper that a perfect digital file just can't copy. My shaky hand drawn lines had more personality, even if they were totally wrong.
Right there with you @wells.zara. My old sketchbooks are a total mess of graphite smudges and coffee drips, but flipping through them feels like reading a diary. The perfect vectors I send off just feel like a receipt, cold and done. That weird energy in the messy lines is totally gone.